‚ô•Sunday, April 19, 2009‚ô•
Why am i feeling so emo....???I hate it and always happen every morning when i wake up...I hate it...get day my day started late..i m always this tired no matter how much i slp...when can i get over it!!!!it is really veri torturing...really i mean it..but i keep telling myself wat ah pi went thru last time is worst than that...Accept it SHARON KHO!!!!this is ur retribution!!!!
Pipi..trust me..i really dont mean it to hurt u previously...I kept blaming myself all these while...I noe that blaming myself cant solve anything and its no longer the issue about getting this solved...I just cant forgive myself....i m still living in guilt even u dont love me any more....I dont want it too...I am really sorry..
Hmm...venting all my emotions out..i felt a little better...
my dad .bro n his friends were back with one queen size bed and frame...
the bed itself is quite hard ...this reminded me of the past when pipi bought one queen size bed and found out that the bed is soft...i was complaining when i slept ,he promised to buy me another bed when he got the money..pipi..i m really veri upset when all this sweet memories just pass by my brain..it is really a waste...my sister said that u can actually choose to rebuild our love than to let go..n u didnt...pipi..i m on ur side in the way that u have tried ur best...its all about feelings...feeling comes lst...No chemistry its harder to be together...pipi..sometimes i m wondering whether do u feel something missing in ur life or u totally forget about the existence of me..?i just wanna noe whether is that a small little point of time that u sort of remembered me?tot of me?Its really painful when one lose feelings for the other...n its totally no feelings at all..not even the missing feeling..Even i miss my friend..pipi..sometimes i m wondering m i really this stupid and not smart enuff to be ur gf..cos i myself prefer smart guys cos they can take care of the family and will not lose out...so does it apply to u who wants a gal who is smart smart de ne?some one whose engish is as powerful as urs?or at least understand ur words?pipi..i despise myself...my english sucks..I dont even noe what are u toking about when u are chatting wif intelligent ppl..i noe u can bring down ur level to mine..but i guess u prefer someone same as u??:)this might be the smallest percentage of reason that u left me n clearly know that i m not ur type and u want someone who has same frequency as u??:)I still believe that u really once deeply in love with me and was not bcos of that.. Deep down in my heart, i m the one who ruined the relationship and my own happiness...whatever reason u gave it to me was just to chase me away..n i noe u dun mean it..u just dont have the feelings anymore..i understand:)
Pipi..when u are not around ,i miss u..today i packed all my stuff on my table..
and some of the things really reminded me of u..
remember this pipi??u purposely put in ur bag so that if i m hothot u will fan for me..cos ah pi noes that ninnin scared of hot n the worst is get angry erh..
These stuff??when we started working for ur dad??property agent?ur favourite directory n ur professional file??its tired but i enjoy viewing the house with u and do the tokings..
This serum i bought it at bugis n that is when u vomiited and kept having diarhea...i went to buy charcoal for u??in the end u vommited every thng...lately we send u to hospital?i accompanied u thru out..n still remeber wat u said to be..u thank me for not meeting my friend and told me that at point of time u needed me the most..pipi..now who is my turn that nid u...but unfortunately u left me..but i never blame u at once for losing feeling for me..nv ever..and no one can just blame u.. Maybe over my dead body?
remember this??u asked me to write down my expenses??i told u actually dont nid but u told me like this then i will noe where all my money gone too...hmm..i will continue to do so...i will not just write but i will control my finance well..
I m always this HOT...after packing the room..other times also feeling hot...always..hai~dunno y..hahaha..
Oh ya pipi..Heard that jurong east swimming complex close liao..oops...how are u going to swim..n will be reopen during june woh..oopsy..oh ya u still got ur soccer...just hope that u will be careful during kicking the ball..u always get injured..be careful...pipi..in ur facebook i have seen ur profile n indeed u really noe how to attract gals...i hopee that the nxt one will be the one who bring colours to ur life..ur happiness matters to me..n like i say..i will be quietly stay as a comfort zone for u..ninnin welcome u back..i can nv love the nxt person more than u..just like martin can nv love rachael more than ah xin...
Oh Ya..lately my bong bong gonna sit for her exam..waiting to meet her...n waiting for ming fang sheng zi(hahah meeting her for exercise session,still got to wait for her free time)...
hwahh...~~gonna slp now...nid beauty slp....er hem!now aredy 1.26am..beauty sleep time over..
THE LOVE ROSE; ‚ô•
